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The Time Has Come - Hillsong


(: i like this song

anyway, my prelim results can be considered kinda flunked, with lots of careless mistakes. well, though the results are lower than my expectations, i know i didn't work for it, so i guess i kinda deserve it. but i've really pulled through this exam all thanks to the grace of god (:

10,9,8,7....

this marks the end of the holidays, there in the blink of an eye, i also just finished my last activity, badminton with jiao, liu, li zhen and phoebe. a new revelation's gonna begin tmr, an embarkation to a whole new expedition, our battle is starting soon. i just hope im well prepared (:
it's not how i start the race, but the whole process of it and how i finish it, alone? or with my team. however, though the start is not as important, the warm up is extremely integral, in spiritual terms, it means to just pray and pray and pray and pray until we get blessed, and i hoped i've warmed up well.

Contentment.

"We did'nt get the whole chocolate bar but at least we got ourselves a hershey's kiss"
Caretaker from the movie "The Longest Yard" said this.

i think God speaks to me in the most unexpected ways. he spoke to me and it somehow led me to thinking abt this verse. well, not all my contacts came today, but im content with what me and zk achieved. i dont feel it's my personal credit to take, but also my sheep's one as well, but the glory is all given to God. Maybe God wants me to practice patience, and that he will bless us next week. well, im all psyched up for what he has in store for me, and im gonna fast and pray really really hard for contacts and that they'll come for svc(:

Psalm 40
17 Yet I am poor and needy;
may the Lord think of me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
O my God, do not delay.

i strongly believe that cd7 will be accomplished maybe even sooner than what was expected, but i involves our full involvement and faith in Christ. God may have blessed me with one bit, but im still spiritually hungry for more of his greatness, and im gonna fast and pray (2nd time im saying this haha) until he blesses me (:

Take aim.... fire!

alright, schools gonna start for me alr and i know it's gonna be one heck of a crazy journey leading to the o levels. everyday i can see myself being bombarded with hordes of white junk which supposedly can help me in my education. well, i cant say that i look forward to school. but i have to go back. okay, im not saying that im hyped up for schoolwork, i never was and i never will be. but i know i've a battle to face once school opens. dont worry, no casualties, but im sure if i fight to my fullest, many will be saved. and besides, it's not a battle in the physical realm, but my spiritual realm. im gonna do my best to beat all my demons and be a testament of god's grace. im gonna get myself prepared... no guns/parangs required, but i've been fasting and praying to ask god to equip me with the spirit of evangelism and eloquence to spread his word. i wanna bear fruit that can help to extend the kingdom of god.if my own testimony is not strong, how can people be moved? if my testimony is huge, it means my god is huge as well. i believe that, and im gonna change for the better, i may have changed already the past few months, but there's just so much extravagance of god's love that can change all my imperfections. yea i know no one is perfect, but for god, im willing to give my all just to take that one step to be like him or at least close to him(:

Back

okay regarding the quote. i was doing my sermon duplication and i came across sth i wrote: when we die, it's either perfect heaven or perfect hell as our characters have already been set. hence we're imperfect in this world so that we can change for the better or worse. well,why not we just really follow biblical principles and really become that gift god will surely love(: i mean, i rather spend an eternity with someone i've worshipped in my lifetime than some guy with 2 horns who would engulf my life in total bedlam. well, this phrase spurred me on and i hope that i can really bring more people and pray that they'll nurture into the perfect gifts for god =D

and i went evax today. it came out quite well, we got quite a few responsive contacts, well i hope they come this sat (:

quote

"What we are is God's gift to us, what we become is our gift to God"
Eleanor Powell

so this morn i was beautifying my sermon notes (haha im like the only one who duplicates his sermon notes and add colours to it)

so i read this verse and it spoke ALOT to me, okay, i gtg so i shall post more abt this later.

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ever tried pricking yourself with a pin? well i asked myself, just how much did jesus endure? i went youtube to watch scenes of the passion of the christ. its really saddening to even see with my very eyes what jesus went through, the whipping, the crown of thorns, the drilling of the nails. so much just to forgive us. yet we still continue, again and again, and we never stop. some even had the audacity to make fun of the movie. i feel so heartbroken to see people even doing that. im trying really hard to hold my tears in already. noone has every gone through so much pain, both emotional and physical. i think it hurt jesus more in the heart than on the outside. i guess now, up to this day every time we sin, we draw away from him, some people even questioning or criticizing our methods, even making sarcastic remarks. it pains him, inside to see his beloved children turning away from him. until this year, i realised the sheer awesomeness of god, his endurance, his patience and never-ending love. but us, we fall short of his standards, being impatient at times, always contemplating and trying to go for materialism. through this video, im reminded yet again of what god has done, and he showed me the vision of cd7, and i feel it's time to chiong all-out, giving up my dsa means nothing unless i use that empty space and fill it with god.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1eMNAQ4D5E&feature=related

here's the link

wonderful, beautiful, glorius, matchless in every way

(: (:

okay, today whizzed by really fast, and i didnt really do work, thought i set myself a goal ):
anyway, lemme share about what happened... i was at the chicken rice stall, ordering some food, then this guy came up to me and asked me about my age and stuff. i got kinda scared at first cuz i had bad encounters before, some may know it, so i was contemplating if i should continue the convo or ignore him. well, i didnt wanna break his heart =P so i continued. well, he wasnt what i expected him to be. he asked if i went church and i kinda realised where the convo was heading, so i told him where i was from and he replied. god spoke to me then, if a full grown man can go up to a young boy and share, whilst not being afraid of the fact that people would judge him as a paedophile, what more can i do? im like only 2-3 years older, DEFINITELY NO PAEDOPHILIC looks and well, this just spurred me on to do evax tmr (: so i hope i get some contacts =D

and well, many people from central are sick these days, i guess its the school blues or some flu bug. well, whoever's sick and reading this, i hope u get well soon(:

7 days break(:

this week was really tiring... thank god this revelation is over (: well, ive got a whole week to rest, but im not resting in building up the kingdom of god, i shall take time to evax(:

and so saturday came, service was great as usual. then during lunch/dinner, i found out tt ps shirley browsed through my blog. then she was there when i found out. okay so first reaction was kinda "uh oh" which somehow turned into "OH YEA!!" and then after that we played murderer at pc bunk in which central d completely crashed the area (:

as for sunday.... i went to watch zohan with aaron justin and qi, the show's really disgusting but super funny, thats all i can say(:

Distance.

God has already planned a specific task for each and everyone of us. the path's clear with only clear obstacles which would help us grow. god has already lit the path, but yet we're stuck with our own goals. destination unclear, results uncertain, however we still push ourselves. medals rust, certs fade, and we still go for it. im still feeling super shook of my decision to drop dsa, but sometimes, when i lose my fire to evangelise, i dont feel much. now that ive got the drive, im gonna make sure im not letting it go, EVER. ive got my final competitions coming up in the next few weeks, and after that im done, and i hope that i wont desire for more competition, but treat them as a passing revelation. the only competition i wanna face is the task that god gives me, the only trophies i wanna win is the blessings from god, the only podium i wanna stand on is one where god annoits me, the rest is history.

Speed.

I've always wanted speed in everything, be it guitar or anth else, ive been wanting to see much results without working hard. i never achieved it. God gave me a word, "SACRIFICE" if i wanted to see results, i need to work for it. i went to hand up my dsa form for rjc today, but didnt get my parents to sign, so i couldnt hand it up. maybe it was divine intervention after all, someone didnt want me to hand up the form. it had been bugging me for the past few days already. it was god's choice as to where he wanted to put me, not mine.

well, i guess im gonna give up my dsa to rjc already, i know i've been working hard for it, but now i wanna work hard for god. if god really wants me to go rjc he will bless my results. it's a really hard decision and it hurts me alot to even just put down the form, it's like putting my biggest hope of entering rjc.

god let me see the bigger picture, i viewed temporal success above all, winning medals that would only rust after a few years. god reminded me of why i cried during camp, what i made central d hold me accountable for. if i wanna serve, ive gotta make time to outreach, and im gonna give up this cca that i've been taking for the past 7 years. it's hard even typing this, my tears are frigging gonna flow any time soon.


Matthew 4:19 - "Come, follow me," Jesus said, "and I will make you fishers of men."

those that know me know that i like fishing, well, i wanna follow god with all i have now, i wanna see cat high grow, and make this sacrifice worth it(:

Awakening.

Muse - Stockholm Syndrome


Muse - Hysteria


Muse - Map Of The Problematique


Muse - Plug In Baby


sorry about the frenzy, i need to keep awake

Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child Of Mine


CLASSIC

Delirious? - History Maker

The Fellowship Of The Unashamed

I'm not ashamed to declare(:

My Pledge

There's a fine line that differentiates a self-sacrificial spirit and selective obedience. i guess im kinda of the former unknowingly. i've spent so much time slacking, i've neglected my studies, even to the extent that i didnt know what exam was on which day. when i smsed to ask, i received the F word from my friend, i wasnt pissed, instead, i was kinda glad. it kinda woke me up as to why i wasnt studying. i felt comforted by being reprimanded. if i could give my all for God, why cant i give my all for studies? after camp, i know my prelim 2 is gonna be flunked so bad, but i will definitely improve(: WITH GOD

as to what i shared on the last night of camp, i wanna reiterate it. i wish to apologize again to central D, for not playing my part. i want u guys to all hold me accountable for the building up of cd7 by hook or by crook at the end of 2008. give me the pressure, let me feel that i've got this huge unit waiting for me to rise up and lead my schoolmates in the kingdom. i may have a weird personality but who cares? A true leader rises up only with a pure heart, good character and a heart that seeks after God. i've wasted my 06 years doing nothing except speaking vulgarities wbich came out as often as my eyes blinked. i could save many in those years, but i slacked. i finally opened my eyes and saw the harsh reality. it pierced my heart, that i had such an obstacle had been put in front of me. But no matter what, with god, nothing is impossible, so guys, i pray that all of you would just constantly pressure me, annoy me, constantly remind me that i've a school to grow, anytime..i need to be spurred to grow and continually nurture people for the kingdom. after all,everybody plays a part and i wanna start doing mine. Desmond, i dunno if you'll ever get to read this, and i really wanna thank your cg for helping me out, rest assured i will do my part as well. this is MY school to complete, and i will be the one who says i've done it with u guys at the end of this year(:

anw, i asked myself, if knew i was gonna die soon,what would be the last chapter of my life be?

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED

i wanna see myself completing whatever task God has entrusted me with, and im gonna give my all to fufil this goal that he has given me. Lord, i want you to annoit me.

also, i would wanna grow in my desire, i've an analogy, could we ever have such a strong desire that even jacob would be jealous? we continually seek God, ask and ask and ask, want so bad that even God himself gets a little annoyed, i know it would never happen because God is more ready to give then we are to receive. but would it be good if we had that kind of spirit? i wanna be that kind of christian that affects people, even non believers in a positive manner.
part 2, ive really grown to know more people in central since growing, lemme speak about one good friendship i've forged.
yes though the pic may seem unglam, its the only one ive got of him on his own. well, i've never really know him on a personal basis. through camp ushering, i got to speak to him more and pray for him and vice versa, i wanna thank him for what he prayed for me, though i was too engrossed crying my armpits out and barely heard anth, i knew god heard, and more tears came out, basically i just wanna thank god for him(:

and also the GYM band, thought nth spiritual (HAHAHA WHO AM I KIDDING OBVIOUSLY SOMETHING SPIRITUAL WAS PRESENT) happened, im glad i got to fellowship with them, basking overnight with the exact same song to many who's hearts we've touched XD and made many number one fans (:

here they are

Wei Li
Keith
Phoebe

heh, im glad i went camp(:

Oasis!

Oasis was a really life-changing experience for me. I've got so much from God, visions, images and a task entrusted to me by him.

Sometimes in life, God calls us, constantly knocking on the door of our hearts, eagerly waiting for us to answer. yet, we're too bothered by the physical world, these temporal distractions prevent us from hearing the voice of God. It is small, but EXTREMELY powerful, i pray that one day, i could really pick up this call from God and let him just completely engulf me. (:

Point 2, we may be able to have the gift of sight, but yet we don't seem to be using our sight for the right things. we still end up doing the wrong things, so i don't see what sight is for without the presence of God in it. I may be able to see, but what good does it serve if im stuck with spiritual blindness? God reminded me that only he could light up our hearts, enabling us to see a clear picture and act according to biblical principles.

God dropped this verse to me as well.
2 Chronicles 32 : 7-8
7 "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged because of the king of Assyria and the vast army with him, for there is a greater power with us than with him.
8 With him is only the arm of flesh, but with us is the LORD our God to help us and to fight our battles." And the people gained confidence from what Hezekiah the king of Judah said.

I guess he knows im afraid of facing the numbers game in my school. My fear of persecution from others causes me to falter and not help in the expansion of the kingdom. I guess, he just wanted to assure me that he is with me all the time to face this urgent problem in my school right now.

On the last night, he gave me my task. He just plainly gave me 3 letters. CD7. I was shocked, and confused at that time. He wanted me to rise up as a CL and lead a group of people in CHS to build up a biblical community in my school, and also seeing my sheep growing and becoming a shepherd and take up 1, maybe even 2 sheep and play that intergral part in building a dream CG a what ps jeff said. seeing that, i was reminded that i was the pioneer of my school, and that i had the pressure of building my school up, if not it would be wiped out in 1 year. i realised i depended too much on the people of CD5. and on top of that, i was extremely afraid. I cried and cried that night, unable to even utter a word, but only small sounds of agony, the carpet underneath my face was wet as i kneeled on the ground, my CG prayed for me, i had to much to ask of from God, but my mouth wouldn't open, tears took over me. But as the day ended, i wanna thank God for believing in me, and that i will work hard and let him annoit me as a CL by end 2008, i prayed for God to bless me with the strength i needed to grow and also nurture my sheep to become shepherds and more(:

the pictures would be up once i obtain the rest from others, and this is just a summarised version of what i learnt in camp, if u wanna know more you can ask me, because i've really learnt too muchXD

Hillsong- Hosanna


New Life Worship - Here In Your Presence

stayover + phoebe's bdae

that's all, camp's tmr , i cant wait(: (exams on the 16th, i CAN wait)

6 day countdown

seldom has once a countdown been so exhilarating, well, it's DEFINITELY not for my exams, it's for camp XD well, im really glad camp's coming, and i know it's gonna be seriously life-changing, well not physically. im gonna like really take a good break by not slacking my time away but spending time in fellowship in the presence of God and plus, learn something else besides academic subjects (:



(: camp logo

well, i wanna thank God for the inspiration he blessed me to help me in my writing on monday

maybe this might help some (sorry if some of you don't know)

I believe (:

Q.

I think the question is not how much time I've spent on studies, but how much I've spent on God.

BROKE..

oh yay, today's the last day of the sweelee sale, and i got myself a guitar (: but now im broke and i need to save save save for shopping soon, i want my V neck tee, sth from topman and FOX (: and i realised ive been blogging very little, well, im sorry, i've been really tired playing gunbound =P well, its kinda exciting to try sth old out again(:

How to be ninja.


How to be gangster.


How to be emo.


How to be nerd.


haha sry if anth offends you, but its really funny!! (:


my new guitar's on the top left (: