(: Postponed

oh yea! chinese test has been postponed, i really thank god, cuz im like so nervous abt the test, i guess he gave me a few more days to study for it =D
and we had our impromptu 2.4km run and we're all like going "WHAT???!?!?!?!"
but i managed to run 10min 15s XD

My Complete Personal Profile.

It's amazing how much colours can do in your life.

ou are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You like the better things in life. You are sensuous and emotional. You are a follower of the Arts and you seek an environment that will give you the fulfilment to the senses that you need.

Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

i did the colourgenics test and found that its kinda true, whoever's reading this should try it (:

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

GUILTY, VERY GUILTY

i didnt study much, only like 2 hr plus where i spent the rest of my day playing bball or guitar. i feel so guilty guilty guilty. and there's like this chinese zuo wen test i have tmr ): guess i really need to stay away from home and study till i finish my stuff then go home. alvern the rural man lives too far from urbanization, study friend's busy preparing for her competition and some classmates just wanna go home.... =/ isit THAT good to study at home? i think im weird.

Simple Plan - Perfect


gosh, this is so punk-rock pri sch =P

Creed - My Sacrifice


alright, gotta try to focus nw

End March!

its finally end march and one mnth closer to o lvls =(
anw, today wasnt exactly great but it was okay. service went quite well but i keep getting hungry towards the end of it. after that, eating at meridien, christopher and ren ting scared me with some roasted peanut, telling me its hamster crap, guess what? i believed it... =.= and after tt we had unit meeting where ric and weijie did forfeit, i'll see if i can get the videos (:

Sports Night.

I see the hopelessness of Noel winning the house championship. We're currently 3rd as of 26th march. guess what?

new cheers - NONE
cheering equipment - NONE
practice - NONE
meeting - NONE

all the teachers never even organise meeting nor make any stuff to cheer. worst part of all, i get to be that very clown that stands in front leading the entire house into a cheer that has been there for 3 years and never won us anything. yea, cheering would be my responsibility (maybe because sometimes im very VEGAS)(its a CHS thing), but cant the teachers like help or anth. im not the one with the budget to buy the stuff, they are. oh man, tmr's gonna be really shitty, i just want sports night to be over and do whats after that (:

anw, no one told me there was high jump today and i totally missed it, crap

also, today's prayer meet was really nice, we shared abt worries and some of the personal problems that we had, and it was really nice when they prayed for me, THANKS XD, the bad part is, the journey to and fro is really far and no one lives in the urbanised area ):

Getting closer..

WHOOHOO, i broke P.B again today (: 37.55m, which means im like 2.55m away from my 2008 target which im positive i can reach really really soon (: and another breaking news : prelim 2 is starting in may (: im so sarcastically excited that my pants might even grow long XD , alright, ive to study, goodbye!

Jesse McCartney - Because You Live

Oh Lord, guide me through...

Hillsong - At The Cross



a really powerful song i heard during the easter service, and well, im thankful for God who was ressurrected (:

as i take my first step next week, be it ACS Barker or CHS, i hope that through me, people will be able to experience God. this'll be my first time trying to spread the word of Christ to others, but im praying that we all will achieve succuess. doing it alone in CHS will also be hard, facing rejection is not one thing im comfortable with. but i know He'll always be there to help and guide me (:

Luke 1:37 - For with God NOTHING SHALL BE IMPOSSIBLE!

BROKE.

ive been spending and eating too much these few days, first it was "changing appetites" + swensens ice cream cake on good friday plus fried food ytd.... and the total expenditure was $60+ bucks. T.T i dunno where has all my saving habits gone too.. also, thanks to the holidays, my momentum for studying has greatly slowed down, and that OBVIOUSLY isnt a good thing, and like im supposed to study nw... =.=

like what alvern said, my trance is back again, i should stop................................................................

Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing



Sweet Surrender (:

:D Notebook!

yea!!! ive got a notebook now, thanks mom (:

Eric Johnson - Cliffs Of Dover


Air Supply - All Out Of Love


this song's very nice, though the lyrics makes me sound so dejected, well, i like it anyway (:

Michael Buble - Home


im not gonna post abt my day, it aint good, hahaha

You were there.

so i ended up readin my sermon notes. i didnt see the point in doing hw, lerthargy overcame me, and i only found solace in reading the gospel.
God spoke to me during that time. i realised just how many 2nd chances ive got. and the questionable stuff ive done. it's been awhile since he spoke to me, so i found it very heartwarming. i always prayed for him to use me in CH, and i hope that one day, he would answer my prayers. i dont want my life to be just a readthrough like a nursery book, or a phase. i want it to be GREAT, great in GOD. (:

SICK (:

somehow my body doesnt want me to go back to school (who wants to?).. home seems such a nice place i caught flu + fever.. in which im resting at home right now. come to think of it, im gonna get a huge scolding as ive not finished alot of my hw. and i dont hv any focus to do now. im busy "nursing" myself back to health (hope sitting in front of the computer and doing absolutely nothing counts). oh goodbye

The difference between science and God.

I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else. - C.S. Lewis

‘Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.’ The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.’You’re a Christian, aren’t you, son?”Yes sir,’ the student says.’So you believe in God?”Absolutely.’

‘Is God good?’

‘Sure! God’s good.’

‘Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?’

‘Yes.’

‘Are you good or evil?’

‘The Bible says I’m evil.’

The professor grins knowingly. ‘Aha! The Bible!’ He considers for a moment.

‘Here’s one for you. Let’s say there’s a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?’

‘Yes sir, I would.’

‘So you’re good…!’

‘I wouldn’t say that.’

‘But why not say that? You’d help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn’t.’

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. ‘He doesn’t, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even
though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?’

The student remains silent.

‘No, you can’t, can you?’ the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

‘Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?’

‘Er… yes,’ the student says.

‘Is Satan good?’

The student doesn’t hesitate on this one. ‘No.’

‘Then where does Satan come from?’

The student : ‘From… God…’

‘That’s right. God made Satan, didn’t he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?’

‘Yes, sir.’

‘Evil’s everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything, correct?’

‘Yes.’

‘So who created evil?’ The professor continued, ‘If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to
the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.’

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues: ‘Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible
things, do they exist in this world?’

The student: ‘Yes.’

‘So who created them?’

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. ‘Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the
lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

‘Tell me,’ he continues onto another student. ‘Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?’

The student’s voice is confident: ‘Yes, professor, I do.’

The old man stops pacing. ‘Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?’

‘No sir. I’ve never seen Him’

‘Then tell us if you’ve ever heard your Jesus?’

‘No, sir, I have not.’

‘Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus
Christ, or God for that matter?’

‘No, sir, I’m afraid I haven’t.”Yet you still believe in him?”Yes.”According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that,
son?”Nothing,’ the student replies. ‘I only have my faith.’

‘Yes, faith,’ the professor repeats. ‘And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.’

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own. ‘Professor, is there such thing as heat?’

‘Yes,’ the professor replies. ‘There’s heat.’

‘And is there such a thing as cold?’

‘Yes, son, there’s cold too.’

‘No sir, there isn’t.’

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

‘You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we
don’t have anything called ‘cold’. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of
heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.’

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

‘What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?’

‘Yes,’ the professor replies without hesitation. ‘What is night if it isn’t darkness?’

‘You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright
light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have Nothing and it’s called darkness, isn’t it? That’s the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn’t. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?’

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester. ‘So what point are you making, young man?’

‘Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.’

The professor’s face cannot hide his surprise this time. ‘Flawed? Can you explain how?’

‘You are working on the premise of duality,’ the student explains. ‘You argue that there is life and then there’s death; a good
God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.’

‘Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?’

‘If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do’

‘Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?’

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

‘Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?’

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.

‘To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.’
The student looks around the room. ‘Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor’s brain?’ The class breaks out into
laughter.

‘Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor’s brain, felt the professor’s brain, touched or smelled the professor’s brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?’

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. ‘I guess you’ll have to take them on faith.’

‘Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,’ the student continues. ‘Now, sir, is there such a thing as
evil?’

Now uncertain, the professor responds, ‘Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man’s inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.’

To this the student replied, ‘Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.
It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God’s love present in his heart. It’s like the cold
that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.’

The professor sat down.


i read this on centralD's blog and it was a very interesting story, so im posting it here(:

Light.

Xavier was no longer treated as part of the family, not as a son, not even a slave. He felt lower than a dog. Since his father’s death, his life took a turn for the worst. Mother had finally shown her inner demons. With the help of alcohol, his mother turned into one of them, and never failed to brutalize Xavier whenever she saw him. What could Xavier do? He was so weak that he did not even have any energy to run away, lest fight back. She had all the authority she wanted at home, overpowering Xavier like a one-ton truck. All he could do was obey her every whim, hoping not to aggravate her. How he wished that one day, a man clad in bright red trunks with broad muscular shoulders which would make any bodybuilder proud, would come and save him from his despair.

His heart cried out loud for help, this immensely powerful voice that only he could hear. Children his age would usually be bathed in the love of caring parents, but the only things he received were a flurry of blows to his body.
“What happened to the good times?” he thought, always questioning why his mother always beat him up. Before Dad’s death, Mother was a woman who glowed with love for her children. It was a thrill every time they went on an outing together. Mother was the mastermind behind the exciting adventure, planning with specific detail of the activities.

He missed the time where they watched the sunset together. The sky, painted with streaks of blue and orange, with the fireball-like sun setting behind the tall tress. The glorious Sun dimmed his light to let the shy Lady Moon step out to take his place. His golden robe faded into the distance to make way for her glowing gown. That was the last he saw of such light, the warm glow this great ball of fire radiated. His ray of hope disappeared like the sunlight; overwhelmed by the blanket of darkness that covered the area. He hated the sun now, for he knew that as long as the demons had control over mum, he could never play in its warm presence.
He always visualized himself as a normal child, able to laugh and play with children in the neighbourhood, bursting out in chirps at even the smallest thing. Such was the beautiful experiences every child should have, the immature laughter, the way everything seemed so simple. All that seemed like a fantasy to him, it was all wishful thinking. Mother always brought him back to reality with an excruciating pounding. He could take no more of the meaningless badgering.

Deep inside, he wanted to grab a knife and plunge it into the depths of her heart, obliterating her from existence, before ending his own life. He knew plainly killing her would be giving her the easy way out. He wanted her to experience the hell he was in now, making her taste the very core of his vengeance. However, there was still that ounce of hesitation and hope. He always prayed that Mother would return to the woman she was before Dad’s death. That was the only thing that stopped him from even lifting up the knife. He hated his guts. Every night, he would pray for strength to overcome this fight for survival, and for the resurrection of his “good” mother. It never happened.

That was ten years ago. His schoolteachers finally saved Xavier. His teachers alerted the police who took Mother away after seeing many serious bruises all over his body. Mother never returned to the woman who was filled with love and compassion. She remained a deranged maniac, only that she had no outlet to vent her pent up rage on. Xavier was free.

“I’m so alive” he thought, as he stands facing the beauty of the never-ending Pacific Ocean. He stares in awe at the hypnotic power of the waves, the power that made him think back of his terrible past. A giant curl begins to take form, and then breaks with a thundering clap as it crashes on the shore. An invisible mist hits his face, moments before white foamy water drowns his feet. He was relieved to have escaped the chains of Mother’s wrath.

As he watched the sunrise, he felt rejuvenated. The warm rays of the morning sun caressed his chubby cheeks as the morning breeze tossed his raven-black hair. The splendid sunrise had him spellbound as he watched the rising of the majestic sun amidst the splashes of warm hues of red, orange and yellow. Such was the splendour and grandeur of the sunrise. He could feel warmth coming from inside his body, it was Hope. The light filters through the silhouettes of his dark past, opening his eyes to the promising future that lay ahead for him.

somehow i realise that all my compos all contain alot of emo stuff. i cant picture myself writing happy stuff, i shoudl try sometime (:
guess what? i still have so much more hw to do (:

Metamorphosis!

okay, today wasnt exactly eventful in the morning due to the HEAVY RAIN which ruined all my plans, for basketball and for training. everywhere was wet. after that, i went home to bathe and set off for Metamorphosis. i couldnt make it in time to support daryl or weijie, so i just came for the performances. it was way high-er than service but it was a really enjoyable worship service. i felt.......spiritually "revived" and now i look forward to this saturday's service. somehow, going out on sat's aint so attractive now, i've found the joy in worshipping Christ (:

looking back, at Metamorphosis 06, that was so long ago. the year i backslided (actually early 07) i still remember my reason for backsliding, i think it's very stupid to do that. for all i know, i may be the one leading CG's right nw, doing my part for my church. seeing all the new believers today plus some new faces, i somehow get the feeling i can grow in Central D. the part where we prayed for the leaders really got me to thinking how would i want CD6 to grow. after today, i dont think i'll ever do what i did last yr. i'll pull myself through, somehow... everyone plays a part (:

1 Corinthians 12:12 - The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. XD

Dedicated to my cool friend (:

hey, stop feeling so bad about yourself, and stop feeling so sad. what you're facing now is just a phase and im sure it'll blow over just as quick. dont judge yourself so much. nobody's perfect, noone has the liberty to judge you, so why feel so frustrated? big or small, you're still you, my special friend, OUR special friend and i will do my best in helping you face this problem, your not gonna do this alone, we'll walk alongside you, alongside God. i'll pray for you, and im sure God will answer our prayers, for he's a generous giver!

SO CHEER UP! =D

It's only been 3 hrs am I'm sick of it....

holidays are boring when u keep studying, im really tired and not to mention hungry ... ):

HOT BABE!!

One Desire

One Desire - Hillsong


oh man, i've lost my temper quite frequently this week. i seem to be losing my control quite easily. will somebody help me? at times when im alone, i try telling myself to calm down, but i end up boiling again. oh dammit i need to find an outlet to vent my "rage" (dont worry, i dont harm)

like in the video, i would really wanna see so many people get to know God, esp in Cat High, i hope through me, more people join (: , since im in yhope, i gotta do sth..

Tmr's the last day!

oh crap, one term has already flown by. and we've like 30 weeks left before o lvl comes? hurray, somehow RJC seems to be running faraway from me! i really need to study even harder (which is very difficult and ive got so much to do)

*reminder --- there're people worse off..

study friend!! when're we studying again??

DREAMS.

haha, ive finally finished my "dreams" essay, its a good thing i practiced before my eng exam, i managed to use one of the practice paragraph i did in dreams (:

“Maybe it’s best you leave me alone, I do not think we should see each other anymore”
“Why not? Is there a third party? Did I do something wrong? I am willing to change, please do not leave me…I really love you”
“I love you too, it’s just…just…having a relationship right now is slowing me down from reaching my goal, my dream.” She said, retracting her soft and fair hands out of mine. She was already on the verge of tears, trying her best not to break down in front of me, showing off her emotional side. I knew that she has a lot of pride and never liked crying in front of anyone, but this choice she made is tearing her apart, either part of this dichotomy would hurt her dearly. I stood rooted to the ground dumbfounded, this breakup was too sudden, I could feel the loud shattering of my heart, and the helpless cry it let out. This was the first time anyone has ever hurt me so bad, emotionally. A huge sea of emotions engulfed me, forcing every bit of air out of my already fatigued body. Feelings of sorrow, regret, helplessness and shock covered me like a dark cloud, blocking out even the smallest ray of light, that ray of hope.
She left just like that, a few sentences and it was over, a relationship that has lasted for over 4 years, going through thick and thin, and yet, it took only a small ambition to mess it all up, to tear us apart. I did not realize the power of dreams till today, the way it could easy alter people’s mindset, the way it made one choose between love and goals. Due to her dream, her lifelong goal, I had to leave the very woman I loved with all my soul. Her dream took away my all, and made me doubt my reason of living.
Mother nature was not helping one bit. In an act of nonchalant “kindness”, she covered the entire sky with dark ominous clouds and sent a curtain of rain beating down from the heavens. Thunder pervaded the sky and released a cacophony of unpleasant noises, seemingly mocking at my plight. Somehow, losing my confidante also caused me to lose my sanity. I hollered at the sky, screaming at the top of my lungs till every bit of energy was drained out of me.
I felt useless, blaming my own inability to even remain with the woman of my dreams. I gave up my all for her only to be turned down in a harsh manner. With a heavy heart, I climbed to the top of the HDB flat nearby. At the corridor, I gazed at the desolate landscape in front of me. It was painted a dull grey, with the sky full of tumultuous, dark, ragged clouds. I closed my eyes, trying to even pick fragments of the beautiful memories we shared.
“Hey, check her out! She’s hot!” Justin smirked, with an ecstatic look on his face, urging me to take a look. I turned my head at the instant she stepped into the classroom. The boring atmosphere suddenly lit up as soon as she entered. It felt as if the entire room was suddenly bathed in a golden hue of zest and zeal. "Who is she?" I thought, staring intently at her. I was completely mesmerized by her beauty, the radiant smile of this fresh-faced youth. She looked like an angel, fair complexion, bright sparkling eyes that shone like diamonds and long flowy hair. She was perfect as she was blessed with unparalleled beauty. My heart raced as she slowly made her way to the empty seat beside me. "She, my tablemate? This is too good to be true!" my heart rejoiced, and I could not help thinking I was the luckiest boy in the world. Looks of jealously were etched on each and every boy's face as they looked at me, I grinned cheekily as I stood up to introduce myself to her. In just a matter of weeks, we were the best of friends and following that, lovers.
“Snap out of it! Stop daydreaming!” I told myself, letting out a weak smile. It was ironic, here I am, hating how dreams can thwart how people think and yet, reminiscing brought me that short moment of joy.
Dreams, a bane or a boon? Or is it an entity shrouded in controversy? Do dreams provide that sanctuary up in our heads, the place where whatever we wish for comes true, the place we seek solace, the haven in which sadness, death or hatred can never be found? I doubt that now. Having dreams would give one that sense of determination to strive for greater heights, but at what expense? Love? Friendship? Family? I see it now in a different light, as a catalyst that destroys relationships, nothing more. This event has perverted my perception of dreams, I understood.
I leaped off the building, watching my life flash before me. I felt my body going faint, as I got sucked down by gravity. Hitting the ground at such high velocity would certainly ensure I died upon impact, I chose the easy way out – a painless death. “Goodbye Sandy, I love you.”
Dreams, meet reality.

im sorry there'sno paragraphing, and good luck to bballers for finals tmr (:

OVERJOYED.

losing my bio spa file made me look all around for what else ive lost. and the results were really incredible, ive lost almost everything ive got from sec3 (: , i feel so jubilant now, anyone wants to share my joy?


i guess sarcasm does work sometimes...

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Gg, i just lost my bio SPA file which is needed for O lvls, I FEEL SO SMART. and guess what, ive Bio SPA tmr, oh my gosh, would someone build me a coffin so i can die right now?

SONGS!

crap, im getting seriously bored with my itunes library already. ive listened to these songs over and over and over and over and over again. someone please send me some songs ):

Leap Years.

ytd was a "rush" day, ran from one place to another without having time to stop, let alone eat ):
anw, went to watch the leap years with people from tp and the show was really nice except the part when the bride runs away, hahaha
and i still have one fat load of hw to do which means i cant blog so much, so goodbye