My Pledge

There's a fine line that differentiates a self-sacrificial spirit and selective obedience. i guess im kinda of the former unknowingly. i've spent so much time slacking, i've neglected my studies, even to the extent that i didnt know what exam was on which day. when i smsed to ask, i received the F word from my friend, i wasnt pissed, instead, i was kinda glad. it kinda woke me up as to why i wasnt studying. i felt comforted by being reprimanded. if i could give my all for God, why cant i give my all for studies? after camp, i know my prelim 2 is gonna be flunked so bad, but i will definitely improve(: WITH GOD

as to what i shared on the last night of camp, i wanna reiterate it. i wish to apologize again to central D, for not playing my part. i want u guys to all hold me accountable for the building up of cd7 by hook or by crook at the end of 2008. give me the pressure, let me feel that i've got this huge unit waiting for me to rise up and lead my schoolmates in the kingdom. i may have a weird personality but who cares? A true leader rises up only with a pure heart, good character and a heart that seeks after God. i've wasted my 06 years doing nothing except speaking vulgarities wbich came out as often as my eyes blinked. i could save many in those years, but i slacked. i finally opened my eyes and saw the harsh reality. it pierced my heart, that i had such an obstacle had been put in front of me. But no matter what, with god, nothing is impossible, so guys, i pray that all of you would just constantly pressure me, annoy me, constantly remind me that i've a school to grow, anytime..i need to be spurred to grow and continually nurture people for the kingdom. after all,everybody plays a part and i wanna start doing mine. Desmond, i dunno if you'll ever get to read this, and i really wanna thank your cg for helping me out, rest assured i will do my part as well. this is MY school to complete, and i will be the one who says i've done it with u guys at the end of this year(:

anw, i asked myself, if knew i was gonna die soon,what would be the last chapter of my life be?

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED

i wanna see myself completing whatever task God has entrusted me with, and im gonna give my all to fufil this goal that he has given me. Lord, i want you to annoit me.

also, i would wanna grow in my desire, i've an analogy, could we ever have such a strong desire that even jacob would be jealous? we continually seek God, ask and ask and ask, want so bad that even God himself gets a little annoyed, i know it would never happen because God is more ready to give then we are to receive. but would it be good if we had that kind of spirit? i wanna be that kind of christian that affects people, even non believers in a positive manner.
part 2, ive really grown to know more people in central since growing, lemme speak about one good friendship i've forged.
yes though the pic may seem unglam, its the only one ive got of him on his own. well, i've never really know him on a personal basis. through camp ushering, i got to speak to him more and pray for him and vice versa, i wanna thank him for what he prayed for me, though i was too engrossed crying my armpits out and barely heard anth, i knew god heard, and more tears came out, basically i just wanna thank god for him(:

and also the GYM band, thought nth spiritual (HAHAHA WHO AM I KIDDING OBVIOUSLY SOMETHING SPIRITUAL WAS PRESENT) happened, im glad i got to fellowship with them, basking overnight with the exact same song to many who's hearts we've touched XD and made many number one fans (:

here they are

Wei Li
Keith
Phoebe

heh, im glad i went camp(:

Oasis!

Oasis was a really life-changing experience for me. I've got so much from God, visions, images and a task entrusted to me by him.

Sometimes in life, God calls us, constantly knocking on the door of our hearts, eagerly waiting for us to answer. yet, we're too bothered by the physical world, these temporal distractions prevent us from hearing the voice of God. It is small, but EXTREMELY powerful, i pray that one day, i could really pick up this call from God and let him just completely engulf me. (:

Point 2, we may be able to have the gift of sight, but yet we don't seem to be using our sight for the right things. we still end up doing the wrong things, so i don't see what sight is for without the presence of God in it. I may be able to see, but what good does it serve if im stuck with spiritual blindness? God reminded me that only he could light up our hearts, enabling us to see a clear picture and act according to biblical principles.

God dropped this verse to me as well.
2 Chronicles 32 : 7-8
7 "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged because of the king of Assyria and the vast army with him, for there is a greater power with us than with him.
8 With him is only the arm of flesh, but with us is the LORD our God to help us and to fight our battles." And the people gained confidence from what Hezekiah the king of Judah said.

I guess he knows im afraid of facing the numbers game in my school. My fear of persecution from others causes me to falter and not help in the expansion of the kingdom. I guess, he just wanted to assure me that he is with me all the time to face this urgent problem in my school right now.

On the last night, he gave me my task. He just plainly gave me 3 letters. CD7. I was shocked, and confused at that time. He wanted me to rise up as a CL and lead a group of people in CHS to build up a biblical community in my school, and also seeing my sheep growing and becoming a shepherd and take up 1, maybe even 2 sheep and play that intergral part in building a dream CG a what ps jeff said. seeing that, i was reminded that i was the pioneer of my school, and that i had the pressure of building my school up, if not it would be wiped out in 1 year. i realised i depended too much on the people of CD5. and on top of that, i was extremely afraid. I cried and cried that night, unable to even utter a word, but only small sounds of agony, the carpet underneath my face was wet as i kneeled on the ground, my CG prayed for me, i had to much to ask of from God, but my mouth wouldn't open, tears took over me. But as the day ended, i wanna thank God for believing in me, and that i will work hard and let him annoit me as a CL by end 2008, i prayed for God to bless me with the strength i needed to grow and also nurture my sheep to become shepherds and more(:

the pictures would be up once i obtain the rest from others, and this is just a summarised version of what i learnt in camp, if u wanna know more you can ask me, because i've really learnt too muchXD

Hillsong- Hosanna


New Life Worship - Here In Your Presence

stayover + phoebe's bdae

that's all, camp's tmr , i cant wait(: (exams on the 16th, i CAN wait)

6 day countdown

seldom has once a countdown been so exhilarating, well, it's DEFINITELY not for my exams, it's for camp XD well, im really glad camp's coming, and i know it's gonna be seriously life-changing, well not physically. im gonna like really take a good break by not slacking my time away but spending time in fellowship in the presence of God and plus, learn something else besides academic subjects (:



(: camp logo

well, i wanna thank God for the inspiration he blessed me to help me in my writing on monday

maybe this might help some (sorry if some of you don't know)

I believe (:

Q.

I think the question is not how much time I've spent on studies, but how much I've spent on God.

BROKE..

oh yay, today's the last day of the sweelee sale, and i got myself a guitar (: but now im broke and i need to save save save for shopping soon, i want my V neck tee, sth from topman and FOX (: and i realised ive been blogging very little, well, im sorry, i've been really tired playing gunbound =P well, its kinda exciting to try sth old out again(:

How to be ninja.


How to be gangster.


How to be emo.


How to be nerd.


haha sry if anth offends you, but its really funny!! (:


my new guitar's on the top left (:

Vids.

You're Loved (Don't Give Up) - Josh Groban


Tears and Rain - James Blunt


Rooftops - Lost Prophets


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WHY?

it's a wonder, why people strive so hard to perfection, though we always know that deep down inside, we can never be perfect. come to think of it, if we humans WERE perfect, i think i'd count this as an imperfection. yet, my world's filled with materialism, be it physically or academically. so the saying goes, "practice makes perfect" we all live by these lines, always thinking that one day, we can stand on level ground with our creator being perfect. however, it's only with him that we are one step closer to the perfect spirit. nonetheless, we don't care much about perfect spirit, all we want is some dumb materialistic need. you know, sometimes i wish there was such a machine that could convert our desire for temporal crap to spiritual desire.

yea, i wish i could blow all these materialistic needs just by putting my arms together and chant some incantation.


Hillsong - Solution

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(: all i can say is that hillsong was awesome (:

THANK YOU (:

oh yea man, i've got 6 tickets, 6 SEXY TICKETS TO HILLSONG! (: (: (: all thanks to kendra =D oh yea, today's really an excellent day, tmr's the last day of school, camp is approaching... it's wonderful (:

Dream Big - Emily Shackleton, done by David Cook


check him out, he's a left-hander as well, COOL HUH.. im not the only one (:

Manhattan - Eric Johnson


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Traumatic.

what gives in being a nice guy? many might not know, well some already know what happened today. and i dun really wanna talk abt it anymore. well, apart from the number of them in school, ive never really knew what they were like. i dont know if he's being over friendly or otherwise, but im just standing my guard, i dont want a repeat of last week. it kinda spoilt my day but well, wfl today was really good. it was enriching and funny at the same time. sin yee couldnt phrase her words well, and .... they became kinda comical at times. ah... ive been in a depressing mood these few days... why???

Champ!

good going, i just realised the day before that ive english prelims, in like 8 hours time? i should really get myself a schedule book or something if not i'll forget all my plans. and now here i am studying for my english. well, i hope God pulls me through the exams (:

Lord, i surrender all..

Bridges.

okay, here's what i've learn today. being a bridge of god's word. i think this analogy is extremely accurate. but currently, i dont think i can be this perfect bridge as shown by the nice one above yet, i still need to grow.


well, think of the BEAUTIFUL sunrise as God's grace, and the thingy sticking out is a broken bridge. i guess that's what happens when we dont believe and have little faith and act differently outside. ..... okay, ive encountered a blockade in my mind, and i cant really post an expository speech, but please feel free to infer and tag if you can speak my mind (:


Hillsong - I Give You My Heart

Delirious? - Rain Down

Sore Throat totally spoilt my day.

ah crap, i HATE being sick. worship sucked for me as i didnt sing with all i had due to my illness and it made me feel very weak throughout saturday. then there was games after service which was quite fun but i couldnt talk much. we lost by a SMALL margin, like 1 point ): and then after that was back to cards. i daresay that my voice was super crappy and i sounded like some spoilt tape recorder. somehow i just wanna skip school on monday, i dont feel well ):
oh and the worst part, i was walking home, then this guy from mos burger waved at me. TWICE, and he had that really paedophilic smile, i wanted to vomit. and he was wearing lipstick... it would totally be fine if it was a girl, but it was a man with lipstick..

crap, i made a gay wave at me ):

SICKKKKKKZZ

oh man, im sick, as in seriously (though im sick of school as well..) my throat has been hurting like mad, and i dunno what else i might have. anw, a miracle occured, for my hcl letter writing, for the first time in 4 years i got a 14.5/20, seeing the improvement, i really wanna thank god and my teacher )to a certain extent). well, im just happy there's improvement. and there's service tmr, i cant wait! XD

and since i cant go remedial, should i......
basketball?
swimming?
running?
gym?

ahhh well... we'll see how(:

i've been doubting myself.. but today, i shall crush this ideology
I WILL hit 40m for javelin by nationals.
I WILL see that CHS reaches 7.
I WILL hit 12.5m for shotput by nationals.
I WILL improve more for my subjects.
I WILL continue to mature in Christ.
I WILL ignore all persecution.

okay, goodnight(: